I'm sorry. For not being able to do anything, for being so helpless, for not giving you the best.
-Joei
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Realization
I have always wondered why some people can shirk away from responsibilities as easy as drinking a glass of water. Today it finally dawned onto me. It's caused by a simple word, "greed".
Greed derives from the darkest side of the human heart where only evil dwells. Some may think that this is not a real job at all and he/she shouldn't even be putting any effort into it, and at the end of the day, reap nothing.
I tend to procrastinate a lot in the past, okay, now too. However after serving in the NS for nearly 2 years, I realize one thing. The working attitude here becomes a habit, and it MIGHT be brought on to the next job in future, whether you like it or not. People also like to make use of the chance when their bosses are not around to slow down on their work. I admit i'm guilty of this too, BUT I think i can also say I changed. After the passing on of my grandmother, i realized something. Time is cruel, humor-less and merciless. I have to make and do the best out of everything, be it NS or some other things
I'm still afraid to do something though. I fear rejection, and that's what's slowing me down.
Well, i guess this is what makes life so darn interesting.
Till then~
-Joei
Greed derives from the darkest side of the human heart where only evil dwells. Some may think that this is not a real job at all and he/she shouldn't even be putting any effort into it, and at the end of the day, reap nothing.
I tend to procrastinate a lot in the past, okay, now too. However after serving in the NS for nearly 2 years, I realize one thing. The working attitude here becomes a habit, and it MIGHT be brought on to the next job in future, whether you like it or not. People also like to make use of the chance when their bosses are not around to slow down on their work. I admit i'm guilty of this too, BUT I think i can also say I changed. After the passing on of my grandmother, i realized something. Time is cruel, humor-less and merciless. I have to make and do the best out of everything, be it NS or some other things
I'm still afraid to do something though. I fear rejection, and that's what's slowing me down.
Well, i guess this is what makes life so darn interesting.
Till then~
-Joei
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
hi-sashibu-ri
Its been a while. Life's been pretty normal lately. This and that did happen, but they were all small. I'm still missing my grandmother. After a few months, i still cannot get over the fact that i'm never able to talk to her again.
Well, i guess it's no use harping over something which i have no control at all.
Yesterday, Eileen was telling me, she had a very bad 18th birthday. I asked her why, and her answer shocked the crap out of me. Okay i'm not gonna write it here, but i was traumatized after hearing it. I mean, how can a person with a mind do this. Okay maybe he's insane, BUT that does not escape the fact that she was not treated rightly. During this short period of knowing Eileen, my conclusion is, she's been very unlucky, i'm kinda sad about it. I mean, why must someone so sweet be treated like that. On another note, I LOVE talking to her =D I think she's super sweet.
Okay i really don't know what else to say.
Till i ORD
ching chao teh~
-Joei
Well, i guess it's no use harping over something which i have no control at all.
Yesterday, Eileen was telling me, she had a very bad 18th birthday. I asked her why, and her answer shocked the crap out of me. Okay i'm not gonna write it here, but i was traumatized after hearing it. I mean, how can a person with a mind do this. Okay maybe he's insane, BUT that does not escape the fact that she was not treated rightly. During this short period of knowing Eileen, my conclusion is, she's been very unlucky, i'm kinda sad about it. I mean, why must someone so sweet be treated like that. On another note, I LOVE talking to her =D I think she's super sweet.
Okay i really don't know what else to say.
Till i ORD
ching chao teh~
-Joei
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